It was very personal to me and I was a bystander

Remembering 9-11 September 13, 2006

“Remembering 9-11” 9-13-06

I am still having trouble functioning. I have a good day, every so often, but I have just felt crappy lately. I want to chat, but I don’t want to chat. I have projects I want to get to, but don’t want to do them. I have pictures in my camera I still haven’t uploaded. My sleep is still messed up.

I was living in Poughkeepsie, New York five years ago and I still remember vividly the day the towers fell. My wife and I were in the City shortly after the event and handed out flyers for emotional help. I remember the somber mood of the place, the sadness, the anger, the check points, the rows of State Trooper cars and vans, the police armed with machine guns, the Army troops. It is so depressing. All because of some asshole and his followers who are deluded enough to think they will be rewarded for murdering innocent people. Anyone who thinks that is deceived and ignorant and I look forward to the day we all stand before God and He delivers true justice for all to see.

I didn’t realize I was so upset until I got an email from Karen with pictures of Ground Zero and all these emotions welled up. I am so sad and angry. I have friends who were there, who are firemen and paramedics and they told me what it was like, the carnage, the shock, the grief. The senselessness of it all. Funerals everyday. My neighbors and friends lost people in that attack. The mayor of Poughkeepsie lost her husband in the attack. There are many in Poughkeepsie who suffered loss on that day. Everyone suffered loss on that day.

PLEASE DON’T FORGET! Our troops are over there defending our freedom and way of life. They are over there for the safety of everyone who is not a deluded lunatic, who is not intent on murdering innocent people. They are doing the dirty work for us, they are dying for us, they are protecting us. They are over there avenging the murder of over 3000 of our friends, neighbors, spouses, siblings, moms and dads, sons and daughters. They are our sword and shield and they are doing what they should be doing, they need to be there.

I avoid politics and the memory of that day, but I have to say that I get so irritated at those who say we should get out and bring the troops home. How stupid! Why don’t we disband the military and police and live in peace and harmony? That seems to be what they think. Again, how stupid! There are those out there who are bent on killing us all. They are still out there and those idiots want to withdraw our sword and shield? WAKE UP! The world is a dangerous place and we live in the strongest nation in the world. WE ARE TARGETS! They would have us line up to be shot or blown up and let it happen to others.

Personally, I look forward to the day I get off this planet, but I can’t stand to see the grief it causes when innocents are senselessly murdered. The pain, the sadness, there is too much of that in the world already.

Thank you for reading my note, I feel better having gotten these emotions out.

I hope you are doing well, but I am still struggling.

Garth